Addiction

You might not think of yourself as having an addiction.  Perhaps you have tried before to stop or cut back the compulsive activity you now want to control or cut out completely.   And you are not alone.  Many people are caught up in self destructive compulsive behaviours that they wish they could stop.

You start the day, determined full of hope that you can stop.  You arrive at a certain time of day or a particular place or doing a particular thing that makes you think of it, want to do it, have it, go there now - whatever "it" may be for you.  

The desire is pushed away but it is insistent and keeps coming back.  Perhaps you manage to overcome the temptation once, twice, ten times until you give in.  You might resist for a time but before you know it, you have indulged again.  There's a rush of the expected pleasure but it is dwarfed by the accompanying rush of guilt and disbelief, self loathing and hopelessness.  You were doing so well, you ask yourself  "why"?  

Well, the good news is it doesn't have to be like that.  The first step towards making it different this time is to understand why you feel the way you do and what you can do to change it.
 
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.”
Albert Einstein